My New Year celebration was everything I could have wished for and more. I went to NYC to spend the weekend with my beautiful friend MT. Saturday we went to a manifestation workshop and for two and a half hours we did pranayam, kriyas, asanas and lots of journaling. We were asked to write down on a piece of paper what was holding us back in 2011 and when we felt ready to go to the alter and rip it up, a symbolism of finally being able to let go and move into 2012 weightless. Although it was easy for me to identity what I needed to let go of, actually letting it go was a whole other matter.
I wrote, “I need to let go of my fear of inadequacy. I am, in fact, enough. There is space in this world for me and the universe will support my dreams“.
As everyone around me eventually got up and rid themselves of whatever it was that was keeping them small, I kept my paper tucked next to me. I know that my fears were at one point a way of protecting my heart. As we practiced, I felt compassion for my inadequacy. Although it no longer supports me, it was something I needed. Could I let that go? Waves of attachment and fear washed through me. Needless to say, I never did rip that paper up during the workshop.
After our workshop MT and I went back to her apartment, had some yogi friends over, and the night was filled with laughter, cheese, and hope.
A few moments before 2012 it hit me what I had to do. I ran to my journal, grabbed my “what I wanted to let go of” paper and with a small prayer I ripped it to shreds. Ready or not, I am NOT allowing that fear to keep me from my dreams any longer. No one, including myself, will belittle my desires in 2012.
We rang in 2012 with a dance party and a lot of NAMASTE B*TCHES!! My heart was bursting with happiness. What a night.
I woke up in 2012 with a single thought, “I need to enroll in Institute for Integrative Nutrition“. It was a random thought, something I’ve been mulling over but definitely not part of my intentions for 2012. I simply do not have the $5,000 financial commitment right now. But at 830 am on January 1st, my consciousness was practically screaming at me that this is what I need to do in order to advance my path. I want to be a wellness coach. I want to help others find health, strength, and happiness. I am passionate about it. This is the way to go.
Well readers, this is where you come in. I am going to start a mini fundraising campaign to enroll in IIN. A new session starts in March so I have essentially three months to raise $5,000. I can do this. The universe will help me. And if you would like, you can help me as well. I created a “donate” box to the right of my blog where you can send some love in the form of $$ my way.
This is not begging. This is not groveling. This is an effort to fulfill the next step of my path in life.
I appreciate you helping me out. But even if you don’t, I appreciate you anyway. This year is going to be a powerful year. I can just feel it in the air, can’t you?
Namaste.
January 2nd, 2012 at 11:05 pm
Thais! I am posting a public thank you to you on my blog so buzzed in here to pick up your URL. I was writing that I was trying to convince you to move to NYC . . . then I saw that you listed IIN in your post!! NO WAY!! I start my courses there in March!! How cool is that!! Happy New Year, Beautiful!
January 3rd, 2012 at 4:15 am
Lady, if anyone can make it happen – I know you can! <3
January 3rd, 2012 at 2:18 pm
love to you Debbie!!! <33
January 3rd, 2012 at 10:14 pm
I BELIEVE IN YOU! I think this is an amazing intuitively guided plan, and I support you emotionally AND financially too – check your paypal!Go get 'em girl! Here's to abundance in 2012!
January 3rd, 2012 at 10:59 pm
you won't regret it dear friend I can promise you that <3333
January 3rd, 2012 at 11:56 pm
How you doubt yourself, I'll never understand but I admire you for seeing through it all. Your sincerity is pure! xo
January 4th, 2012 at 12:30 am
You go girl! You will do great!! xo,Diane
January 4th, 2012 at 10:18 pm
I just sent $5 dollars your way. I found your blog by accident on twitter, and this is the first time I have read it. I am sharing my money because I am always behind someone chasing a dream. What else is there? Best of luck reaching your goal.
January 4th, 2012 at 11:33 pm
thank you thank you Brad!!
January 7th, 2012 at 2:51 pm
Thais – you should check outhttp://www.kickstarter.com/It's a web site for funding personal projects/dreams, etc.
January 7th, 2012 at 11:16 pm
Hello – You are so full of life, and I have so much respect for you and your Yoga practice. I have learned so much from you, and see so much potential in your energy & intelligence & beauty. My resolution for the year 2012 is "Don't give up," and the Sols help me with this every day.
January 8th, 2012 at 3:05 pm
Thanks Linda!!! I went and applied my project.. I hope they accept =)