It’s been a struggle to write these days. Looking back on my year in order to write my Two Year Anniversary post, I realized just how radically I went from constantly writing to… nothing. I went from easily banging out 2-5 posts a week to… two a month. What has happened to me!?!
I think there are a variety of possible reasons for my lack of words these days but ultimately I think it’s plain and simple – I forgot my original intent. I forgot why I started writing in the first place. When I first started this blog I wanted to create a space where I could air out my thoughts. All I wanted was to give voice to the wisdom that is always sitting on my soul. I clearly remember that July afternoon in Boston 2010, sitting with my roommate and saying “Megan, I am going to start a blog about my meanderings”. She was super supportive and before I knew it, my baby was born.
But then these past few months I feel like I entered this funk where I do not think what I write is “good enough”. I feel that I have to write to some unseen expectation of what my readers want. I read other blogs and I think “why can’t I write like that?”. Being stuck in this belittling, judgmental mindset has not helped my writing that’s for sure. I am not sure if this is something all writers go through but I feel inarticulate, uninspired, and bored of my own writing. It doesn’t help that life has thrown me for a few loops in the past few months and my writing yogi self is struggling to break through.
Enough is enough I say. It’s time I go back to the basics. It’s time I go back to writing for the joy of writing and not because of page hits, number of comments, and topics that other people will enjoy. Just like the business I am creating, I want the intention behind my writing to always be to inspire myself and others. And that only happens when it comes from a place of authenticity and originality.
So come join me on my journey of finding stillness in the world of craziness. Follow this blog if you have wordpress, or sign up for my newsletter. Too often we get so caught up in our ambitions of self help that we forget to rest in-between our breaths. And oh how important those rests are!
Namaste.
I found the same thing recently, I had to ask why I started writing a blog in the first place and whether I wanted to carry on. I always try to blog as if no one is reading (without writing anything that may cause legal trouble of course) which is true sometimes!
Everyone gets bored of their own writing and envious of others who seem to have endless inspired insights, exciting lives, fantastic photos etc etc. I think you just have to do what you do and that’s enough.
I think I can see what you’re saying dear Teeg. I too have had the same experience and perhaps many bloggers have. Perhaps at the beginning we are so full of passion to share what has risen up as such joy within ourselves. And, as time passes the joy is not dimmed, nor the passion to share, but it could be that we settle into our marriage with Truth and it becomes part and parcel of our existence and not so very “new” as to drive us so hard. This does not diminish the natural outcome to share and shine our light. Too, we may find that we are living it as the saying goes: “walking the walk instead of talking the talk”. And we’ll discover that spurts of activity come along as we continue in “being” and we will share them as they bubble up.
“that only happens when it comes from a place of authenticity and originality.”
so very true! write from that place and words will come naturally. write what you want to write. write because you want to write.
I want to reflect back to you and your radiant soul for a moment…
Every single thing I’ve read of yours has been absolutely authentically you, exactly where you are when you write it…you have a gift for bringing your vulnerability to words, and you have never squandered that gift away.
Your slowing down in posts, this brief pause, might simply be a reminder that your writing is reflective of your life…which also called for a stepping back, going into a cocoon, and then your ultimate transformation to who you are today, ever changing with beauty and grace.
I love you my friend…whether you write 2 blog posts a week or 2 blog posts a year