It’s been a struggle to write these days. Looking back on my year in order to write my Two Year Anniversary post, I realized just how radically I went from constantly writing to… nothing. I went from easily banging out 2-5 posts a week to… two a month. What has happened to me!?!
I think there are a variety of possible reasons for my lack of words these days but ultimately I think it’s plain and simple – I forgot my original intent. I forgot why I started writing in the first place. When I first started this blog I wanted to create a space where I could air out my thoughts. All I wanted was to give voice to the wisdom that is always sitting on my soul. I clearly remember that July afternoon in Boston 2010, sitting with my roommate and saying “Megan, I am going to start a blog about my meanderings”. She was super supportive and before I knew it, my baby was born.
But then these past few months I feel like I entered this funk where I do not think what I write is “good enough”. I feel that I have to write to some unseen expectation of what my readers want. I read other blogs and I think “why can’t I write like that?”. Being stuck in this belittling, judgmental mindset has not helped my writing that’s for sure. I am not sure if this is something all writers go through but I feel inarticulate, uninspired, and bored of my own writing. It doesn’t help that life has thrown me for a few loops in the past few months and my writing yogi self is struggling to break through.
Enough is enough I say. It’s time I go back to the basics. It’s time I go back to writing for the joy of writing and not because of page hits, number of comments, and topics that other people will enjoy. Just like the business I am creating, I want the intention behind my writing to always be to inspire myself and others. And that only happens when it comes from a place of authenticity and originality.
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